Do you ever find yourself seriously having to look at a calendar because you don’t know which end is up or if you’re coming or going? I’ve done it multiple times daily for days. We’ve all been there and when you’re there you feel like you’re never going to leave.
Last month, I’m not even sure if I shared on the blog but via social media if you follow me you may remember the flu struck our house and the month of September it literally just lingered. We got to October and I thought, phew maybe we are in the clear.. why was I so foolish?
This past week Vey has been through the ringer which in return drags her momma through the ringer. Last Monday it started with a spout of vomit from her tiny little mouth over a plate of my apple pie that I had just sat down to eat. How can these tiny humans store so much vomit in heir little beings by the way? That’s for another day.. anywho, we ruled it out as too much running around or eating too much at dinner and let it be. Tuesday however, the fever showers up and it was loud and clear that it was present. Not any other single symptom just the fever. Vey has always struggled with getting fevers to go down no matter what we try or do, but this time it was different. My child’s toes were turning blue, she was hallucinating and shaking. My 2•year old daughter was falling asleep all over the place and could barely lift a finger. My mother (goodness I love that woman) and I got her seen by the doctor and tests were done. Without getting into too much detail we found out our little leading lady had infections throughout her small self. Shots were given, prescriptions were written and she was able to come back home with me which was a relief.
It’s beyond heartbreaking to watch your child be so helpless and so scared. I always feel like she wonders why her mommy isn’t stopping all of the pain or why she is being tortured by these awful sweats and shakes. It’s heart wrenching. It’s draining on everyone! No one sleeps and it’s emotional as all hell. I would find myself staring at the clock wondering if this would be the hour we all got rest. Would the next day be the day she woke up and was back to my cheery little firecracker of a daughter would be back?.. it’s been a fight to see her be herself but she’s showing up a little more day by day.
Our sleep schedules (HA) seem like they could possibly get a little more on track. I have put anything and everything on the back burner just to focus on my families needs and my daughters health, the way it should be…never felt like I brushed my hair, showered with a cloth in the sink(eek) more than once, definitely never put on make up, drank way too much caffeine, ate like a slob because my fiancé grabbing take•out on the way home was easier.. OH and cried literally everyday... It’s never easy watching our loved ones sick. We put our children first we put ourselves dead last we get the job done and we let them know we love them. That’s what we do!
There will always be a runny nose to wipe and nights worth of sleepless worthies as long as your a mom and they’re your babies, so forever!
For now im just an overtired mama blogging about being sick and tired of my baby girl being sick and tired.